ssap people.
I moved to new room last Friday. I think its a better place but little bit far from others but still good. lets be grateful. A big pleasure when everyone helped me to settle my things. I have loads of things to be transferred. Used few cars you know haha. Settled cleaning everything yesterday. What an effort. Thank you everyone. I love you gaissss.
2.7.18
25.6.18
A TRASH?
assalamualaikum.
its been a while. I never thought my life would change this much. I realized how fragile I am atm. I realized how useless I am in everything I did. me went to classes without getting anything. I understand nothing like my memory and my capability to understand something is at 0.0 point or even lower. i got so stressed. Everything f u. Trembled sometimes, not being able to speak properly when im getting nervous or scared. The feeling is unbearable. This is not my place. How can I stay in such awkward place. Awkward lecturers, awkward classes, awkward friends. I think I have no friends. Maybe 1 only. I hate numbers, theories etc. Trying to understand every single thing is so hard. No one to ask because everyone is struggling and the awkwardness blocked everything. Well there is this one lecturer who is very nice. Thank you sensei. I would always remember u even later im no longer here. I wish to go home but I will hate myself evenmore if I stopped at the middle without struggling till the end. But I no longer think I can stand the pressure. Am i too lazy? or is everything too hard? Too many problems around. Being scolded when i did not pick up the phone call is so pain. I was sleeping. Is it a crime to sleep? cant I sleep? Im tired of everything. Too many things to think. Life is no more something enjoyable. Trying to do everything alone but I know I cannot. My existance troubled everyone. Theres nothing I can do alone. Im such a trash. I tried to mix around with people but i felt so sad. Sometimes I laughed but none of them came from my heart. I felt such a great sadness inside. How low I am in everything. In study, in social life, in everything tbh.
its been a while. I never thought my life would change this much. I realized how fragile I am atm. I realized how useless I am in everything I did. me went to classes without getting anything. I understand nothing like my memory and my capability to understand something is at 0.0 point or even lower. i got so stressed. Everything f u. Trembled sometimes, not being able to speak properly when im getting nervous or scared. The feeling is unbearable. This is not my place. How can I stay in such awkward place. Awkward lecturers, awkward classes, awkward friends. I think I have no friends. Maybe 1 only. I hate numbers, theories etc. Trying to understand every single thing is so hard. No one to ask because everyone is struggling and the awkwardness blocked everything. Well there is this one lecturer who is very nice. Thank you sensei. I would always remember u even later im no longer here. I wish to go home but I will hate myself evenmore if I stopped at the middle without struggling till the end. But I no longer think I can stand the pressure. Am i too lazy? or is everything too hard? Too many problems around. Being scolded when i did not pick up the phone call is so pain. I was sleeping. Is it a crime to sleep? cant I sleep? Im tired of everything. Too many things to think. Life is no more something enjoyable. Trying to do everything alone but I know I cannot. My existance troubled everyone. Theres nothing I can do alone. Im such a trash. I tried to mix around with people but i felt so sad. Sometimes I laughed but none of them came from my heart. I felt such a great sadness inside. How low I am in everything. In study, in social life, in everything tbh.
30.4.17
Negara Matahari Terbit
Assalamualaikum.
So masa aku tulis post ni, Im actually in class. Memandangkan awek sebelah main game, so aku nak buat something jugak sebab aku dah mengantuk sangat ni. So ya. Aku teringat pasal blog yang dh berhabuk ni yang aku x update ape2 langsung for a long time. So aku nak tulis pasal pendapat aku pasal negara Jepun. aku nk tulis benda baik2 je. Selamat membaca.
So masa aku tulis post ni, Im actually in class. Memandangkan awek sebelah main game, so aku nak buat something jugak sebab aku dah mengantuk sangat ni. So ya. Aku teringat pasal blog yang dh berhabuk ni yang aku x update ape2 langsung for a long time. So aku nak tulis pasal pendapat aku pasal negara Jepun. aku nk tulis benda baik2 je. Selamat membaca.
- Negara bersih, susah nak jumpa sampah, kalau jumpa pun mesti x obvious sebab sampah tu seketul macam tu je
- Tanda bersih kebanyakannya.wangi pulak tu.kadang2 kalau masuk rase cam xnak keluar.
- kedai 24 jam banyak so sng orang macam aku yang cepat lapar ni nk cari makan.
- Jalan sempit so pemandu semua berhati hati and susah nak nampak kemalangan which is very good xdelah aku takut.
- Rumah bentuk lebih kurang je semua so nampak kemas je susunan semua rumah.
- Pengangkutan awam sangat mudah. Boleh check waktu kat internet.Boleh bayar kat kedai 24 hours.
- Banyak kedai makan western so i suke sangatttt.
- ade salji,cantik!
- Bunga pun cantik sangat time musim dia.
- Sistem kutip sampah yang sangat teratur sampai aku rasa menyusahkan.kahkah.aku yang teruk sebenarnya.
okey tu je aku nak cakap.bye2.nah belanja gambar.
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